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rebecca@rebeccafussell.com
Do what?

The rubber tourniquet squeezed my bicep preparing my vein for the prick.

Nothing new.


After 40 years of diabetes and getting my blood drawn every three months, it’s old hat to me. I think I could draw my own blood if they’d let me. But no. Something about laws and regulations . . . I could make it super simple for them if they’d let me. I’d just slip into the little cubby, put on the rubber gloves, and boom. Done.


Today however, the team of phlebotomists are clipping along and shuffling us in and out like a well-oiled machine. Honestly, not the norm. They rarely engage in chit-chat, just the societal “How are you?” (Which is so not a sincere question. People don’t even pay attention. We just answer like pushing play on an answering machine.) followed by, “Please verify your name and birthday.”


And that’s it. The little system works for me. It’s early in the morning so I’m good with smiling politely and zipping the lip to focus on the task at hand, which happens to be sticking a very sharp object into my tender arm.

But out of the blue, one of the other technicians peaks her head into the cubicle and throws out a statement. It’s so unusual it takes me a minute to realize she’s speaking to me and not her co-worker.


“When you leave here, I’m going to give you my blue coat and you’re going to give me your beautiful top! Oh, my goodness. I love your shirt. It’s so pretty.”


Then the lady drawing my blood snaps out of her machine like job-trance and comes to life. For the first time in months I see them as real people.


She chimes in about what a great color the shirt is and where did I get it and on and on they go.

Not only did they get me out of there in record time, but also with the beautiful gift of connecting to others. Evidently that ignited my robotic heart because after I left the building it dawned on me the manager apparently was a real person too. She had a good team in there today and she deserved to know I appreciated it.


She lit up like a firefly when I acknowledged her good work. I bounced out to my car telling God, “Well. That routine blood work pumped a little life into my veins.”


I don’t know what I expected Him to say, but didn’t expect what He whispered to my soul. “I know she was joking, but I want you to give her your shirt.”


“But that’s just the point”, I tell Him. “She was joking. People say stuff like that all the time.”


“Ahem. You realize I know that right? But I want you to really give it to her. Go home. Change your clothes. And when you’re running Ronnie’s errands, bring it back to her.”


I gently mentioned to Him, “You know I really like this shirt. I get a lot of compliments when I wear it. I don’t really have . . . okay . . . Yes, I do have one exactly like it in another color. But I rarely wear this color and apparently I need to wear it more.


Oh boy. God, You’ve blessed me so much. I have more than enough. If you’re serious, I’d love to give it to her.”


I made it home. Got busy handling issues and daily household chores, but the thought kept coming back. Give her your shirt. I sensed this an assignment from Him.


About 1:00 that afternoon I pulled back up into the parking lot. How would I explain to the front desk that I needed to see the lady whose name I didn’t know to give her the shirt I had on that morning?


Somehow, I squeaked out a weak explanation, and the lady who made the comment appeared a few minutes later. I tried to ignore the–who-is- this-crazy-lady-and-why-is-she-asking-for-me- look on her face and babbled off something like, “I know you were just joking this morning, but God told me to do this. He loves you and wanted you to have this shirt.”


There I said it, and for the first time all day I felt the burden lift.


Her hands flew to her face in surprise. She reached for the bag without a moment’s hesitation almost as if she expected it. Then grabbed me in another bear hug.


As I headed out the door the manager, who I had complimented earlier in the day said, “You have no idea how much she needed that today. I have no idea what’s in that bag, Mrs. Fussell, but it doesn’t even matter. You just have no idea.”


You know what? I didn’t have any idea. But I know Someone who knew exactly what she needed.


When it was all said and done my heart exploded in awe of God. His mercy and care for that dear lady warmed my soul. But the cherry on top allowed me to be part of His plan to bless and encourage her.


I serve an awesome God. Oh yeah!


Hope & Glory to you,

xoxo

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So the next day, the masses track Jesus down on the other side of sea and say something like, “ Hey, that thing you did yesterday with the little kid’s lunch, can you do that again? We’re getting a little hungry here.” Jesus tries to explain that they’re missing the point. They’re looking for sustenance to sink their teeth into, but He is the true bread. He goes so far as to explain the idea of communion to them, but not like communion in church today. He drops a bomb on their expectations when He mentions eating His flesh. Drinking His blood. Of course, He doesn’t mean this in a physical reality, but a spiritual sense. That’s not what they heard. The gross idea repulses them. In fact, the Bible says, “ Many of His disciples turned away from following Him.” It wasn’t fun anymore. No more free food. Weird ideas they weren’t willing to process out with Him. The bubblegum had lost its juiciness. They were offended and confused. Exit stage left. Or Right. Whichever one was closest. 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Most all my friends and acquaintances respect my commitment to follow Christ even if they haven’t chosen it for themselves. But what if a day comes that I’m alone in that? Or worse. I’m punished for it. Will I become a bubblegum Christian? Or let’s go a step deeper. Am I a bubblegum Christian now ? Do I get offended at God when I toil without much reward, and I don’t get the feel-goods I expected? What about when my prayers don’t turn out the way I’d hoped, or I don’t understand what God is doing in my life? Do I just forget all the holy stuff? Spit the gum out. Choose self-satisfying over obedience. I mean, come on. I’m not evil or anything. Just minding my own business. Ah! And that’s the problem. I’ve forgotten that my body is not my own. I’ve been bought with a price. (I Corinthians 6:19-20) As one preacher put it, I’ve also ignored a key point in the situation, one the disciples apparently understood. 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Be encouraged, friend. When the bubblegum gets stale, we mustn’t forget this world is not our home. Heaven is real, and one day God will reveal all His glory. For those of us who’ve trusted Him, when we’ve finished our earthly life and find ourselves enveloped in all He has prepared, we’ll be so relieved we chose to buck up when life got uncomfortable. At the end of your life, instead of the Cabby’s statement, may this be your testimony: “Glory be!” said you. “I’m so glad I lived my life different. I knew there were things like this!” Hope & Glory to you, xoxo
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